Sunday, September 14, 2008
Ramblings..
I have this overwhelming feeling of emptiness, and it has engulfed me for the past few days. I cannot express it well enough to understand it. Even the company of friends doesnt take it away from me. I havent felt quite this way in a long time, and thats why the return of such a feeling of blackness scares me. I know the destructive power of this feeling, I know the kind of command it has over me and subsequently my life. And I know that this feeling is something I most certainly do not invite into my space. But I dont know what to do, how to over come this, how to conquer this. Hence, I chose the path of passive resistance, which is writing. I write, day in and day out. And that saddens me further because it reminds me of things i have lost, people- friends i have lost and the shreds of paper i have lost, the paper on which I poured my heart out. And, this feeling also means the augment of a lesser pleasant me.
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Heya :)
sorry 4 not replying instantly- something that a rambling of such nature demands!
Clearly, u're not in ur best spirits these days ..
symptoms:
*interruption- phone ringing: #frowns# -- hey, it's u - in that zombie-tone that u darkly flaunt these days! :P :P*
anyway .. so getting back to this ...
1. No new theory ... of Creation, Destruction, SAP-ism etc etc ..
2. No addition in the famous family tree :( - no modification, either .. shudnt the mums n dads have swapped positions several times by now? :O
3. No concentrated Acid remark ... really ... i almost feel like back to a life of peace n tranquility!
4. No newly coined terms/ newly named gadgets ... :(
.... u know, personally, i think it's okayy ... these 'time outs' - altho urs doesnt seem like a time out ... u seem to be positively petrified of what this bout of low-spirits can do to u :( ..
if it is really potentially detrimental, then maybe u can try hunting for the Why's of this - sometimes we know the Why's, but jus dun want to face them ...
well, n tackle 'em head on - by acceptance, moving on ...or rectification ...
it may not help to bring back a smile to ur face now.. but will keep u calm inside, n not break into pieces - as u seem to fear right now ... not sure .. this is how it seemed ..
well, all the best.. n yeah ..
Lady Melancholy aka Cut writss ..
i wanna sign off with this note of love and peace ..
*look of awww n kiss in the air *
je vais te teur ;)
:) cheers!
** je vais de teur ..
ohh! get that tissue for me okay!! ..
:P
hey ronald,
love the ps at the end. "please bring my tissue paper"!!! :D
aaah, the melachony that enulfs me etc etc... isnt that much discussable/ debatable- not yet at least- so shall leave that to that.
but your silly paw-ings (read writings) do bring a smile and that is a blessing for me... keep writing, here there everywhere!!!
am going to see you soon enough and see you too much this week so...
au revior (for now!!)
To start with i m in a cyber cafe nw,, nd while i was writing twice the cpu,,, got my kick nd it restarted again... (pathetic condition oc cafe cant help)...on top of that,, the comp i was working is nt starting (ive nw changed to a new one)nd th owner of cafe says ive done some 'hanky panky 'with th system,, ..:xGod help me,, these creatures.. nd the best thing is that i hv written the above crap nd nt come to th point of writing th comment wen i ve only 5 minj left,,nd ny thing beyond 1 hr in th cafe is 10 bucks more.. :((
On to the point nw,, its been a long time since ive nt cmented on ur blog,, (i had the reason of cyber roam,, )bout,, ur 'not being in good spirits' i wud say,, by what ever i know,,(dont sleep plz while i give my GYAN)...be happy with who ever is around you and with whome u know u can be you...catching new things does attract but if in case u r nt able to gt that,,plz stop peecha karing that.. be with people who make u happy and nt with the ones jo tumhe saddy karden. they r nt worth being ur frnds (these r general comments nd nt directed to ny one)... Try to find joy in small things (nd that u r expert at).... dull moments as these keep on coming,, then u must talk to sm one,, to get ur maan,,halka:)... yesterday,, i ws talking to u nd u told,, bout,, paratha ,, nd ,, enjoying kinda stuff,, thn i was missing u ppl.. but,, thn i knew,, tht i will cm back on 21 again,, to meet u all, :) so i became happy.. so,, keep smiling and find small small reasons to be happy,, or u cn get some else a broad smile and u will love it,,im telling u,, nd till th time we r there u need nt worry,, PROMISE...
5 mins,, over,, nw th cafe wala is saying tht i must leave,,or else,,he will kick me.. he he he,, tc,, nd enjoy...
Hiiiii sumeet,
Indeed it has been a long time since you commented last. And it does seem like eternities since i have seen you last.
The reason behind writing the post was a little different; which I will tell you when we do meet in person- which i realise has been pushed back 2 days- 24th!!!
Anyways,
hoping you are enjoying the holidays. for me n ron its not a holiday yet!!! Working Women we are!!!
C ya soon!!
cheers...
and now that there is no cyber roam do i expect to see ur footsteps in my older blogs???
:D
bbbbye!
@ ron and sumeet.
Oh, and it does raise my spirits to see ur comments and if you were worried by my blog, dont be. i am feeling much better these days. the clouds of darkness which were desending on my life have now long gone. Sumeet Thank u for dropping by. and for ron for staggering by!!
hahahaha!!!!
:)
nice to know that u are back to feelin' good ..
Keep smiling always ..
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