Confessions of a Relationship schizophrenic

This blog is in relation to an older blog "iJargon". I now attempt to write a sort of a rehab introduction / testimonials... Have a fun read!!

Confessions of a Relationship schizophrenic:
Hi, I am Meghna Singh and I am losing my mind. I have RS. It makes you believe that you have relationships with certain people when they don’t really exist. For eg, to consider yourself a friend of someone whilst they don’t hold similar opinions. I don’t know what causes it or how its cured but I do know the destructive power of this disease. You are, at most times, left wondering what exactly went wrong… How could have this happened?... whether you were wrong? And here you’ll see the malice of this condition. It makes you go into these dialogues which are unnecessary, irrelevant and amusing at best. But at the end of the day, because of your inability, your sheer incapacity, to understand and appreciate what you have or what you could have had, you are single-mindedly focused on what was never there. And for how long can you stagnate on the same place, thing, memory…? Although I am not opposed to stagnation per se. It can help you at times. It can force people to do things that they would never do, things that wouldn’t happen otherwise. It can jolt you. I do however have the morbid fear of change. But that’s a topic for another day.

RS, is a powerful condition. It gives and takes so much, it gives you memories. But, the poor you, don’t realise that these memories are at best imaginations of your incapacitated mind.

Memories, on their own, are painful. To think memories that exists only in your head. Which have no relevance in the ‘real’ world… imagine the pain they bring? Thats the sheer magnitude of this ulceric of a condition.And so I exist…I exist in pain… I exist in memories. In my Jack/Derek/Ryan’s love.

(in relation to feb 5th blog)